Now:
It's a latenight post 'cos i couldn't get myself t sleep.
Smtg just kept lingering in my mind.
Okay, let me get off my chest bit by bit.
While clearing my drawer for it's v v messy since my preparation-for-exams days,
i came across 3 letters t be specific.
Each, t be given t 3 individual people who are impt t me in each part of my life.
X, XX, XXX(Name shall not be mentioned)
Being my close friends, you'd probably knw tht im into snail mails(as in i tends t write letters instead of sending emails).
Maybe i did regret tht i did not pass them this three individual letters.

For fear of not wanting them t know?
Just t get off my chest but i don't want them t know?
For fear of making the situation worse?
I seriously don't know.

Probably, i am just escaping from reality from them.
I might look super strong, or tht i look like i've swallowed down the cold hard reality but deep down, im biting myself, forcing myself t say "Yes, i can face all these myself!"
Erm, after re-reading what i wrote in the letters, i just couldn't stop thinking what a coward i have been all along!
Why couldn't i have tht tad courage t pass them the letters and let them know how i feel!?!
Well, everyone has different flaws.
And for my case, i know i always escape from reality.
Quick, slap me!
Let me get out from the shell 'cos all i want is t let them know how i feel previously that's all!


God, let me die please?
I think i can't or will never face the reality myself.