All i wanna do now is to sit down, and cry like crazy.
And i'll probably be fine after that.
It's crazy bottling all these feelings inside.

Last night is just like one of those nights during my Sec School days.
When i just lie on my bed, doing my work, waiting for the sms.
I know you do understand this tormenting feeling of waiting.
Yeah, it wasn't very nice.
And i give up waiting after 3am 'cos i know by then, the sms won't come.

Prolly, i'll abandon this thought.
Prolly, i've gone all insane after bestf's confession last evening.
Prolly, i thought i'd be the same.
But well, each individual has different mindset, feelings, heart.
Sometimes, we couldn't always get what we want.
I procrastinated alot last night, i thought aft this, im going to do it.
It's plain naive, thinking tht everything is going smoothly in my own "plan".

JL said after knowing XXX, she finally understand what's regret.
I told her, i've seen regrets in my life far too much.
In the aspects of feelings, studies, friendship, love, family-kinship.
So much regrets that, i think if im gonna wait till the "time" is ripe, i think i'd lose him.
Jo told me to wait, she said prolly this time wasn't right with all the tests coming up etc.
But what i want isn't what everyone is thinking actually.
I jus want my feelings to be made known to him.
I don't need anything in return, im adamant on this.
If he really has it for me, it's a bonus.
But i guess aft so much bad experiences, im not asking for much.
Anw, it doesn't really matters.

So i'll go t my sanctuary and cool myself down.
Im feeling like wtf, and abit emo.
Lol, don't worry, im so gonna be high aft awhile.
Till then, byebye:)